5/12/2012 10:16: Amy: Heyy thanks for the message last night, but I fell asleep! :P
5/12/2012 11:52: David: Haha no worries
5/12/2012 11:52: David: Hope you're alright today
5/12/2012 11:58: Amy: Not yet, but I will be soon :)
5/12/2012 11:58: David: Good good
5/12/2012 11:58: David: At least you can finally move on now
5/12/2012 11:59: David: Now that it's pretty much proven
5/12/2012 11:59: David: To be all bullshit
5/12/2012 11:59: Amy: Exactly what I'm holding on to!
5/12/2012 12:00: Amy: Plus holidays soon
5/12/2012 12:00: David: Woo
5/12/2012 12:01: David: You'll find someone else who's much
nicer
5/12/2012 12:03: Amy: Let's hope so. I will then not miss
him at all. And if you start at the bottom (i.e. With Adam) you can only go up
:p
5/12/2012 12:04: David: Lol
5/12/2012 12:04: David: I mean if you accept that
5/12/2012 12:04: David: He's been a dick
5/12/2012 12:04: David: All along then
5/12/2012 12:04: David: What you're missing
5/12/2012 12:05: David: Wasnt 'real' anyway
5/12/2012 12:05: Amy: I don't yet because he WAS amazing at
a time. But I've accepted that he's not for me. And can never be.
5/12/2012 12:05: Amy: But yeah
5/12/2012 12:05: Amy: I've also realised that the 'amazing'
him wasn't him
5/12/2012 12:05: Amy: It was all pretend
5/12/2012 12:06: Amy: And 'let's see how far I can take it'
with him
5/12/2012 12:06: David: I still need to get my head around
this amazing thing
5/12/2012 12:06: Amy: Hahaha
5/12/2012 12:06: David: It's carried him though so much
5/12/2012 12:06: Amy: It's one of those things where you
have to be there in person :p
5/12/2012 12:07: David: What was he doing which was so
utterly fabulous?
5/12/2012 12:07: Amy: It has. Too much actually
5/12/2012 12:07: Amy: I should've walked away earlier
5/12/2012 12:07: Amy: But now I'm starting to forget the
good times
5/12/2012 12:07: David: ;O
5/12/2012 12:07: Amy: Btw before I go into the whole
fabulous thing
5/12/2012 12:07: Amy: Quick advice?
5/12/2012 12:08: David: Yep
5/12/2012 12:08: Amy: I have some of the letters and presents
he gave me. Tempted to give it back to him
5/12/2012 12:08: Amy: Do I?
5/12/2012 12:08: Amy: Or do I just throw them away
5/12/2012 12:08: David: Um has he mentioned that he wants
them back.
5/12/2012 12:09: Amy: No
5/12/2012 12:09: David: I'd just throw the letters
5/12/2012 12:09: Amy: But there's one in particular I want
to give back
5/12/2012 12:09: Amy: Yeah letters will probs go
5/12/2012 12:09: David: Give any decent presents
5/12/2012 12:09: David: To a charity shop
5/12/2012 12:09: Amy: Lol he didn't give me any decent
presents
5/12/2012 12:09: David: Nah the letters should definitely go
5/12/2012 12:09: Amy: Actually there are no presents
5/12/2012 12:10: David: What were you referring to then?
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: It's just this one like piece of
plastic type thing
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: Which he wrote on
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: And he gave it to me
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: And it meant a lot
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: It just said "the other
heart"
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: Cheesy I know
5/12/2012 12:10: Amy: But he believed the quote
5/12/2012 12:11: David: I don't get it
5/12/2012 12:11: Amy: "We have 2 eyes, 2 ears, but one
heart because the other is out there for us to find"
5/12/2012 12:11: Amy: Since then I've wondered if we also
have a nose out there to find
5/12/2012 12:11: Amy: And a liver?
5/12/2012 12:11: Amy: But anyway...
5/12/2012 12:11: David: Right
5/12/2012 12:11: Amy: And I want to give it back
5/12/2012 12:12: Amy: With a note saying "give it to
the right girl"
5/12/2012 12:12: David: Give him one
5/12/2012 12:12: David: I found the other asshole
5/12/2012 12:12: Amy: Lol
5/12/2012 12:12: Amy: Hahahahahahahaha
5/12/2012 12:12: Amy:
5/12/2012 12:12: David: Lol
5/12/2012 12:13: David: Just chuck it away
5/12/2012 12:13: Amy: Really?
5/12/2012 12:13: Amy: Don't give it back?
5/12/2012 12:13: Amy: I really want to
5/12/2012 12:13: Amy: And chuck the letters etc
5/12/2012 12:13: David: Yeah don't be all sentimental about
it
5/12/2012 12:14: Amy: But it's the last thing.
5/12/2012 12:14: Amy: I won't give it in person
5/12/2012 12:14: Amy: Put it in a envelope and give it to
his flatmate to give it to him
5/12/2012 12:14: David: If it would give you closure then
fine
5/12/2012 12:15: Amy: Okay
5/12/2012 12:15: David: But you don't wanna create a
situation where he's like
5/12/2012 12:15: David: 'ah I'm so hurt you gave that back,
reminds me of the good times' the etc et
5/12/2012 12:15: David: And then you feel bad
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: No because I was waiting until he got
with another girl
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: He has
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: And said he's falling in love with her
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: So I know it's over
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: Feeling bad would be temporary
5/12/2012 12:16: David: He's such a retard lol
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: IF it happens
5/12/2012 12:16: Amy: You're actually right for once! :p
5/12/2012 12:17: David: If it wasn't so tragic it would be
funny
5/12/2012 12:17: Amy: Retard seems too nice for that bastard
though
5/12/2012 12:17: Amy: Hahahaha
5/12/2012 12:17: Amy: One of my guy mates just burst out
laughing when I told him he said "she's so so sweet" and "is an
exceptional kisser"
5/12/2012 12:17: David: Yeah he's outlived his sell-by date
5/12/2012 12:17: David: He's like a parasite
5/12/2012 12:18: David: Is that this new girl?
5/12/2012 12:18: Amy: My roommates call him "the
mosquito"
5/12/2012 12:18: Amy: Yup
5/12/2012 12:18: Amy: Jemma
5/12/2012 12:18: Amy: Who seems nice enough
5/12/2012 12:19: Amy: But just doesn't know what she's
getting into
5/12/2012 12:19: David: Lol
5/12/2012 12:19: Amy: He hasn't contacted me since he met
her
5/12/2012 12:19: David: Maybe she'll fuck him over
5/12/2012 12:19: Amy: While just before he met her he was
constantly texting and calling, begging me to get back with him
5/12/2012 12:19: Amy: Oh and he just met her on saturday
5/12/2012 12:20: Amy: Unlikely. He's too smart for that
5/12/2012 12:20: David: Urgh
5/12/2012 12:20: David: Stop glorifying him
5/12/2012 12:20: Amy: Feels sick knowing that he's spending
the entire day and night with her today though
5/12/2012 12:20: Amy: Heyy credit where credit's due
5/12/2012 12:20: David: I don't know Amy I mean
5/12/2012 12:21: David: He just did what he wanted
5/12/2012 12:21: David: While bullshitting about
5/12/2012 12:21: David: How you're the only one for him
5/12/2012 12:22: David: It's pretty classic stuff
5/12/2012 12:22: David: But he wrote really well in that
email I read
5/12/2012 12:22: David: So credit there
5/12/2012 12:25: Amy: He's a good writer. Texts, fb messages
and all. Wish you'd seen his letters
5/12/2012 12:25: Amy: Pulitzer standard on "how to trap
a girl"
5/12/2012 12:25: Amy: But words can only make up for some of
the actions
5/12/2012 12:26: Amy: And it's taken me a long time to
realise he's actually never proved anything
5/12/2012 12:26: Amy: Just said it
5/12/2012 12:26: David: ;p
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: Distinctions in all essays too
:p
5/12/2012 12:27: David: That's pretty beastly
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: Yup
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: Failed maths last year though
5/12/2012 12:27: David: Does he do all the readings?
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: So a combination
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: Actually no readings
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: He hates reading
5/12/2012 12:27: Amy: No lectures
5/12/2012 12:28: David: So he got distinctions by just
turning up and writing
5/12/2012 12:28: Amy: Yup
5/12/2012 12:28: Amy: More credit due?
5/12/2012 12:28: David: He must have
5/12/2012 12:28: Amy: Plus he flirts with his teacher
5/12/2012 12:28: David: Known the names of the authors
5/12/2012 12:28: David: And their arguments
5/12/2012 12:29: Amy: No
5/12/2012 12:29: Amy: I've seen his essays
5/12/2012 12:29: Amy: There are next to no references
5/12/2012 12:29: Amy: And the references he uses are not in
the readings
5/12/2012 12:29: David: Well that's pretty awesome then
5/12/2012 12:30: Amy: Yup
5/12/2012 12:30: David: Yeah okay
5/12/2012 12:30: David: I'll give him a distinction
5/12/2012 12:30: David: I turned up and wrote them with no
reading
5/12/2012 12:30: David: Got a merit
5/12/2012 12:30: Amy: In "Jerk 101"?
5/12/2012 12:30: David: I've been outclassed
5/12/2012 12:31: Amy: Don't feel too bad
5/12/2012 12:31: David: I'm crushed Amy
5/12/2012 12:31: Amy: He doesn't have me as a girlfriend
anymore. He's lost out
5/12/2012 12:31: David: True
5/12/2012 12:31: David: You seemed pretty solid gf material
5/12/2012 12:32: Amy: Would it make you feel better if I
told you he's also small and skinny and would lose out in human awards for
acceptable looks for our species?
5/12/2012 12:32: Amy: I am
5/12/2012 12:32: Amy: He just didn't know it enough
5/12/2012 12:32: David: Lol
5/12/2012 12:32: David: There we go I'm physically better
than him but
5/12/2012 12:33: David: Mentally I'm fucked
5/12/2012 12:33: David: He sounds forty as well
5/12/2012 12:33: David: Voice wise
5/12/2012 12:36: Amy: Well you can't have it all
5/12/2012 12:36: Amy: Man up
5/12/2012 12:36: Amy: Is that bad?
5/12/2012 12:36: Amy: Sexy older guys can be a turn on?
5/12/2012 12:37: David: I dunno it depends on your taste
5/12/2012 12:37: David: I wouldn't want to be more mature
than a 21 year old
5/12/2012 12:37: David: Even though I'm easily waaaaay more
mature
5/12/2012 12:37: Amy: Well trust me when I say you're
definitely not
5/12/2012 12:37: Amy: Ironical^
5/12/2012 12:38: David: I can't help but be
5/12/2012 12:38: David: Wise beyond my years Amy
5/12/2012 12:38: David: Here I am
5/12/2012 12:38: Amy: So it just comes naturally?
5/12/2012 12:38: David: Relationship guru
5/12/2012 12:38: Amy: Haha weighed down by the wisdom of
your experiences?
5/12/2012 12:42: David: You can start
5/12/2012 12:42: David: Writing me an essay
5/12/2012 12:42: Amy: An essay??!
5/12/2012 12:43: David: About all the fabulous times you had
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: What for?
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Oh
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: I see
5/12/2012 12:43: David: With mr bankson
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Bit painful
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: But okay
5/12/2012 12:43: David: And I'll skim it when I get back
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Skim it??
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: If I write it, you had better read
every word
5/12/2012 12:43: David: Sorry
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Pause at every comma
5/12/2012 12:43: David: Oh god
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Yes.
5/12/2012 12:43: David: Right let's scratch that then
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Or no deal
5/12/2012 12:43: Amy: Hahaha
5/12/2012 12:44: David: ;p
5/12/2012 12:44: David: Alright brb
5/12/2012 12:44: David: You decide
5/12/2012 12:44: David: ;O
5/12/2012 12:44: Amy: Okay
5/12/2012 12:50: Amy: I'll be on the train in about an hour
5/12/2012 12:50: Amy: Then I shall type it all out
5/12/2012 13:00: David: Alright buster
5/12/2012 13:00: David: If you think it's gonna make you
regress
5/12/2012 13:00: David: Then don't ;p
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: But it'll give you some perspective
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: So I will
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: I'll think about it
5/12/2012 13:01: David: ;/
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: Once I'm on the train
5/12/2012 13:01: David: It's not about me lol
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: Yeah
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: But I need to go over it too
5/12/2012 13:01: Amy: Because I'm just trying to repress it
5/12/2012 13:02: Amy: Rather than confronting it
5/12/2012 13:02: David: My tactic
5/12/2012 13:02: David: Repress it
5/12/2012 13:02: David: Bottle it
5/12/2012 13:02: David: Add it to the baggage
5/12/2012 13:03: David:
5/12/2012 13:04: Amy: "Relationship guru" you suck
5/12/2012 13:04: David: Haha
5/12/2012 13:04: David: Unconventional
5/12/2012 13:04: Amy: Very
5/12/2012 13:04: David: The Jeremy paxman of counselling
5/12/2012 13:05: Amy: Controversial
5/12/2012 13:07: David: Dw
5/12/2012 13:07: David: Soon
5/12/2012 13:07: David: You'll meet someone of my caliber
5/12/2012 13:07: David: And forget all about old noddy Banks
5/12/2012 13:07: David: That's the essence of all this
5/12/2012 13:08: David: It's all fairly inconsequential
5/12/2012 13:08: David: Once your feelings change
5/12/2012 13:08: David: And your heart's repaired
5/12/2012 13:08: David: And beating for someone else
5/12/2012 13:08: David: <3
5/12/2012 14:36: Amy: Hahaha
5/12/2012 14:37: Amy: But hopefully it'll work out exactly
like that
5/12/2012 14:37: Amy: Once I get over him
5/12/2012 14:37: Amy: I'm not in a rush to get with someone
else
5/12/2012 14:38: Amy: It just has to be someone else
5/12/2012 14:38: Amy: Someone better
5/12/2012 14:38: Amy: Anyway
5/12/2012 14:38: Amy: I'm on the train now
5/12/2012 14:38: Amy: So.
5/12/2012 14:39: Amy: I'm going home for the night
5/12/2012 14:39: Amy: I'll also pick up that "the other
heart" thing
5/12/2012 14:39: Amy: And give it to his flatmate tomorrow
5/12/2012 14:39: Amy: But
5/12/2012 14:39: Amy: About the fabulous times
5/12/2012 14:40: Amy: He was there almost every day
5/12/2012 14:41: Amy: He cared so much about little things
5/12/2012 14:41: Amy: Like if I was cold
5/12/2012 14:41: Amy: he'd forcefully offer me his coat.
Even when I had a coat
5/12/2012 14:41: Amy: And he was just wearing a t-shirt
underneath
5/12/2012 14:41: Amy: When I was ill
5/12/2012 14:42: Amy: He left his job for the day and came
back to halls (he was working outside London) to look after me
5/12/2012 14:43: Amy: He'd always care if I was upset
5/12/2012 14:43: Amy: Call me all the time if I was
5/12/2012 14:43: Amy: And check up on me
5/12/2012 14:43: Amy: He made me laugh
5/12/2012 14:44: Amy: We have a similar sense of humour and
we think in a similar way
5/12/2012 14:44: Amy: We'd often say the same thing at the
same time
5/12/2012 14:44: Amy: Unexpectedly
5/12/2012 14:44: Amy: He stood up for me when I was doing
the conference thing and this guy tried to take over as president
5/12/2012 14:45: Amy: Adam talked to him on my behalf as
well
5/12/2012 14:45: Amy: And the guy backed off
5/12/2012 14:45: Amy: He cared so much about my safety
5/12/2012 14:45: Amy: Like if someone was running past, he'd
make sure I was out of the way or that he was in front of me
5/12/2012 14:46: Amy: He'd make sure I got back safely when
I was out with my friends
5/12/2012 14:46: Amy: Although he did go over the top with
this once when I forgot to text him after a night out and he tried to get my
phone traced! Illegally.
5/12/2012 14:47: Amy: I was SO mad at him for that
5/12/2012 14:47: Amy: He wrote the most amazing letters
telling me how much he loved me
5/12/2012 14:47: Amy: And he always said the right things
5/12/2012 14:47: Amy: He'd let me get away with so much too
5/12/2012 14:48: Amy: Like I could tease him like hell and
be seriously rude
5/12/2012 14:48: Amy: And he'd take it as a joke
5/12/2012 14:48: Amy: He gave me the opportunity to go after
what I wanted
5/12/2012 14:49: Amy: If I was stressed he'd be there to
talk things through
5/12/2012 14:49: Amy: He was there whenever I just wanted to
talk
5/12/2012 14:49: Amy: Or just needed someone there
5/12/2012 14:49: Amy: Just silence, but someone there to
just hold me I guess
5/12/2012 14:49: Amy: He let me choose a lot of stuff
5/12/2012 14:50: Amy: Like what we would watch in the cinema
5/12/2012 14:50: Amy: Or even when we watched movies in our
room
5/12/2012 14:51: Amy: He had a similar taste in music and
was okay with what I think is a seriously odd music collection I have
5/12/2012 14:51: Amy: We went for a picnic one time
5/12/2012 14:51: Amy: And we just lay there just talking the
entire day
5/12/2012 14:51: Amy: And I could talk and talk to him
forever and not get bored
5/12/2012 14:52: Amy: We always had so much to talk about
5/12/2012 14:52: Amy: I barely slept
5/12/2012 14:52: Amy: We were up until 4 or 5am every night
5/12/2012 14:52: Amy: And there was nothing awkward about
our conversations
5/12/2012 14:52: Amy: Even the most awkward topics were fine
5/12/2012 14:53: Amy: It was easy to trust him
5/12/2012 14:53: Amy: It had been a very very long time
since I'd had the courage to let someone in
5/12/2012 14:53: Amy: But he promised he could be trusted
5/12/2012 14:53: Amy: And eventually I started to believe it
5/12/2012 14:54: Amy: So I told him almost everything
5/12/2012 14:54: Amy: I always avoided the 'past
relationships' section
5/12/2012 14:54: Amy: But apart from that
5/12/2012 14:54: Amy: We talked about our dreams and fears
5/12/2012 14:54: Amy: And what we really wanted out of our
lives
5/12/2012 14:55: Amy: We realised how similar we were even
being so different
5/12/2012 14:56: Amy: He cared about what I thought
5/12/2012 14:56: Amy: What I had to say
5/12/2012 14:56: Amy: And he listened
5/12/2012 14:56: Amy: I can literally talk for hours
5/12/2012 14:56: Amy: And he would be there listening to
every single word
5/12/2012 14:57: Amy: We used to go on 7 or 8 hour walks in
the first term last year
5/12/2012 14:57: Amy: We walked around almost the whole of
London!
5/12/2012 14:57: Amy: We'd leave at around 9pm
5/12/2012 14:57: Amy: And come back 5am-ish
5/12/2012 14:57: Amy: I have memories of almost every street
around with him
5/12/2012 14:58: Amy: We'd talk about silly things
5/12/2012 14:58: Amy: Point out things we liked
5/12/2012 14:58: Amy: Blame the architects for ruining the
skyline
5/12/2012 14:58: Amy: He believed that 'bricks had souls'
5/12/2012 14:58: Amy: Which always made me burst out
laughing
5/12/2012 14:59: Amy: We could have entire conversations
that no-one could follow because we just had a connection
5/12/2012 15:00: Amy: And he made me feel like I was the
only one in the room even when there was a crowd of people
5/12/2012 15:00: Amy: He'd say stupid things and I'd tease
him about it
5/12/2012 15:00: Amy: He took that and didn't retaliate or
get annoyed
5/12/2012 15:00: Amy: I used to tease him about getting a B
in further maths a-level
5/12/2012 15:01: Amy: All the time and he'd get embarrassed
and I found that really cute
5/12/2012 15:01: Amy: He had so much time for me
5/12/2012 15:01: Amy: He'd turn up the second I asked
5/12/2012 15:01: Amy: No matter what he was doing
5/12/2012 15:02: Amy: He said he never looked at other girls
and I believed it
5/12/2012 15:02: Amy: It seemed like he really didn't
5/12/2012 15:02: Amy: We went out for valentines day
5/12/2012 15:02: Amy: And watched a movie
5/12/2012 15:08: Amy: We kissed through the entire movie and
I loved him holding my hand throughout
5/12/2012 15:08: Amy: I was his first gf
5/12/2012 15:08: Amy: So he was an awful kisser and stuff at
the beginning
5/12/2012 15:08: Amy: But he got much better
5/12/2012 15:08: Amy: And I liked that
5/12/2012 15:09: Amy: He always gave me the benefit of the
doubt
5/12/2012 15:09: Amy: I could say something that he'd
believe me
5/12/2012 15:09: Amy: We also went to the monument and tower
bridge one time
5/12/2012 15:09: Amy: And we just had so much fun as 'us'
5/12/2012 15:10: Amy: Even though we were in a group of
people
5/12/2012 15:10: Amy: He was there the entire time and it
felt like he was there just for me
5/12/2012 15:10: Amy: That's all I remember
5/12/2012 15:10: Amy: That's all the good times
5/12/2012 15:10: Amy: When I was happier than I felt like
I'd ever been
5/12/2012 15:12: Amy: Can I list all the bad times now?
5/12/2012 15:12: David: Go for it
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: Okay
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: Well I met Adam on the first night at university
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: He was drunk (what a surprise!)
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: And he stopped me walking past
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: We joked around
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: And he asked me my name
5/12/2012 15:14: Amy: And I asked his
5/12/2012 15:15: Amy: I jokingly called him "Adammie"
5/12/2012 15:15: Amy: Which stuck
5/12/2012 15:15: Amy: He was like 'she's the only one who's
allowed to call me that'
5/12/2012 15:16: Amy: Then he was saying to everyone that
"find me tomorrow and remind me who you are because I won't
remember!"
5/12/2012 15:16: Amy: I also remember him trying to hit on
Alicia that night
5/12/2012 15:16: David: Eww
5/12/2012 15:16: Amy: Though she made it very clear that she
wasn't interested
5/12/2012 15:16: Amy: Hahaha
5/12/2012 15:16: Amy: So the next day we had a induction
thing
5/12/2012 15:17: Amy: And reminded him that we met last
night
5/12/2012 15:17: Amy: Though he probably doesn't remember me
5/12/2012 15:18: Amy: He said he did
5/12/2012 15:18: Amy: And we sat together
5/12/2012 15:18: Amy: Then we met again now and then
5/12/2012 15:18: Amy: And started going on long walks
5/12/2012 15:18: Amy: Then he came over to my room one night
and we watched a film
5/12/2012 15:19: Amy: Where we snuggled in together and held
hands. I thought he'd kiss me
5/12/2012 15:19: Amy: But he didnt
5/12/2012 15:19: Amy: At this time also btw he had told me that he'd had a gf before called Jemma (oh the irony!)
5/12/2012 15:20: Amy: Then in the second week
5/12/2012 15:20: Amy: He told me to come to his room one
night
5/12/2012 15:20: Amy: And I did
5/12/2012 15:20: Amy: He asked me out
5/12/2012 15:20: Amy: I told him I'd just broken up with my
bf before uni and didn't want to get into a relationship right now
5/12/2012 15:21: Amy: He said okay
5/12/2012 15:21: Amy: And we carried on with the
"friends with benefits"
5/12/2012 15:21: Amy: We kissed like 2 weeks after
5/12/2012 15:21: Amy: But we still didn't go out
5/12/2012 15:22: Amy: Then christmas came
5/12/2012 15:22: Amy: And I was on holiday
5/12/2012 15:22: Amy: He texted me all the time over xmas
telling me how much he missed me and that we should definitely get together
after hols
5/12/2012 15:22: Amy: He said there was no other girl
5/12/2012 15:23: Amy: And there won't be
5/12/2012 15:23: Amy: On the last two days of the holiday we
had no contact
5/12/2012 15:23: Amy: Because he kept pressurising me to
meet him in a hotel
5/12/2012 15:23: Amy: And I said no again and again
5/12/2012 15:23: Amy: And eventually just started ignoring
his messages
5/12/2012 15:24: Amy: We got back
5/12/2012 15:24: Amy: And on the first day back we kissed
and he said let's go out
5/12/2012 15:24: Amy: I said we had to give it time
5/12/2012 15:24: Amy: He told me he hadn't thought about any
other girl
5/12/2012 15:25: Amy: Okay station is here. I shall continue
this in about an hour.
5/12/2012 15:25: David: Alright
5/12/2012 16:48: Amy: Haha I try my best :p
5/12/2012 16:48: Amy: Well I said let's give it some more
time
5/12/2012 16:48: Amy: And we did
5/12/2012 16:48: Amy: He asked me out again on jan 21st when
we he stayed over for the night
5/12/2012 16:48: Amy: And I said yes
5/12/2012 16:49: Amy: Oh btw the week before I said yes to
him
5/12/2012 16:49: Amy: He said he'd kissed two girls over
xmas
5/12/2012 16:49: Amy: And I got annoyed at him and didn't
speak to him for the entire weekend
5/12/2012 16:49: Amy: But then he said it was only a kiss on
the cheek and I believed him
5/12/2012 16:50: Amy: Should've noticed the signs then I
guess
5/12/2012 16:50: Amy: Anyway then we went out
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: But whenever he used to go home
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: He'd ignore my texts for hours
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: And not call me
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: He never ever offered to take me out
for things
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: (I don't believe in the whole 'the guy
should pay' thing)
5/12/2012 16:51: Amy: But he never offered to just treat me
5/12/2012 16:52: Amy: I never got any presents and all
5/12/2012 16:52: Amy: And I gave him a valentines day
present
5/12/2012 16:52: Amy: And he did too (I later found out that
one of my friends told him to)
5/12/2012 16:52: Amy: Last week I also found out that over
christmas he HAD kissed both those girls he claimed to have "just kissed
on the cheek"
5/12/2012 16:53: Amy: Then easter came
5/12/2012 16:53: Amy: And I had internships
5/12/2012 16:53: Amy: So I couldn't meet up much
5/12/2012 16:53: Amy: And he'd spend all his time asking me
to meet up
5/12/2012 16:53: Amy: When I'd tell him I couldn't, he'd
absolutely lose it and get angry at me
5/12/2012 16:54: Amy: I think he was also annoyed when I got
internship offers and he didn't. But I tried really hard. He hadn't.
5/12/2012 16:54: Amy: We did eventually meet up once towards
the end of the easter holidays
5/12/2012 16:54: Amy: And it was a good day
5/12/2012 16:54: Amy: Just went for a walk
5/12/2012 16:54: Amy: And grabbed something to eat
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: We got back after easter
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: And things were rocky
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: We weren't getting along as well
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: And we both had a hell load of work to
do
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: Because we hadn't worked all year
5/12/2012 16:55: Amy: I also found out recently that he
kissed a girl in april
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: When I was moving houses so was away
for a weekend
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: He didn't tell me at the time
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: But later said that SHE kissed him
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: Not the other way round
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: He's still in touch with her
5/12/2012 16:56: Amy: And they also went out on a date
during april
5/12/2012 16:57: Amy: When I thought our relationship was
going well
5/12/2012 16:57: Amy: From then on you know the story
5/12/2012 16:58: Amy: We broke up on results day
5/12/2012 16:58: Amy: After he totally lost it at me
5/12/2012 16:59: Amy: We got back together
5/12/2012 16:59: Amy: Then he cheated
5/12/2012 16:59: Amy: He eventually told me
5/12/2012 16:59: Amy: Still saw them
5/12/2012 17:00: Amy: Twisted and bruised my arm
5/12/2012 17:01: Amy: Lied to me
5/12/2012 17:01: Amy: Again and again
5/12/2012 17:08: Amy: Then he still carried on telling me he
loved me
5/12/2012 17:08: Amy: While seeing other girls
5/12/2012 17:09: Amy: He didn't bother contacting me more
than a few times over the entire summer
5/12/2012 17:09: Amy: Although that's because he was 'busy'
with numerous girls
5/12/2012 17:10: Amy: Then said I couldn't expect him to be
free just because he didn't have my family's money to go flying around the
world
5/12/2012 17:11: Amy: And now he's in a
"relationship" with Jemma.
5/12/2012 17:11: Amy: Btw he also eventually admitted that
his first gf called Jemma never existed
5/12/2012 17:11: Amy: And was made up
5/12/2012 17:11: Amy: Remind me again why I wanted to be
with this jerk?
5/12/2012 17:12: Amy: Because having written all of this I
found myself searching for all the good reasons I couldn't remember
5/12/2012 17:12: Amy: And bad reasons which flowed out
5/12/2012 17:12: Amy: But it's while writing the bad reasons
that I missed him more
5/12/2012 17:12: Amy: Weirdly
5/12/2012 17:12: Amy: Am I addicted to getting hurt?
5/12/2012 17:13: Amy: Or am I just trying to remember the
bad things in the hope we can work through these bad times?
5/12/2012 17:13: Amy: But I know for sure I'm never going
back to him now
5/12/2012 17:13: Amy: Or ever
5/12/2012 17:23: David: Wow
5/12/2012 22:21: David: I don't think anyone's addicted to
getting hurt
5/12/2012 22:22: David: I guess going through the bad things
5/12/2012 22:22: David: Makes it hurt
5/12/2012 22:22: David: And somehow you've got into a cycle
5/12/2012 22:22: David: Where Adam then makes you feel
better after
5/12/2012 22:23: David: Even though it's harmful in the long
run
5/12/2012 22:40: Amy: You're making an incredible amount of
sense today, Soper
5/12/2012 23:24: Amy: But yes you're right. It just takes
some perspective from time to time.
5/12/2012 23:28: Amy: I found the 'present' I was talking
about too. So it's a bottle cap with a note scrunched up inside. I shall be
giving it to his flatmate tomorrow. Closure for me. Just hope he doesn't try to
contact me afterwards. Haven't had time to get rid of the letters yet. But I'll
do that on the first day I go home from uni. It's not like I've read them in a
while anyway, but I'll be tempted to read them before chucking them.
5/12/2012 23:28: Amy: I probably will do.
5/12/2012 23:28: Amy: And then get rid of them forever.
5/12/2012 23:28: Amy: New year, new beginning!
5/12/2012 23:28: Amy: To make it sound cheesier and more
dramatic.
5/12/2012 23:31: David: ;D
5/12/2012 23:31: David: I always make sense lol
6/12/2012 16:15: David: Did you get rid of your other heart?
6/12/2012 16:30: Amy: Lol
6/12/2012 16:30: Amy: Gave it to his roommate
6/12/2012 16:30: Amy: *flatmate
6/12/2012 16:30: Amy: To give to him
6/12/2012 16:30: Amy: Hope to hell he doesn't try to contact
me after
6/12/2012 16:30: David: Haha
6/12/2012 23:09: Amy: He refused to open it apparently
6/12/2012 23:09: Amy: And told his flatmate to tell me to
stop contacting him.
6/12/2012 23:09: Amy: And sending him stuff
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